It's been a while...

So...I've not blogged for quite a long time. 

In truth, I've been having a blast in life but a real trial in the diet part of my life. I've been on holiday twice when prior to 2016 I can't remember the last time I went on holiday. 

It was all going so well up to that first holiday and from there I've been a true yo-yo-er. On the plan, off the plan, on, off, repeat. What ever the stage though I've spoken to Aine (my nutritionist) and I keep getting back on track but then falling off again. The positive - I do keep getting back on track. On previous diets once I've fallen off track, that's it, it's broken, I've failed, why bother. But Aine helps me pick myself up, dust myself off and start again. 

Yesterday  I went to Jane's house and had a photo/video shoot! It was so much fun and so nice to meet everyone. In particular Aine, my nutritionist and emotional support throughout this journey and Yvonne - my twitter friend who I will definitely now call a friend in real life. 

It was interesting that at least 4 of the girls at the shoot had lost 4 stone. It seems there is a 4 stone itch...the urgency has gone, I've merged the plan into life and I'm in for the long haul. How do I keep going now? I want to, I need to, but it's hard. I have done great so can tell myself I 'deserve' a treat; is it really a treat if, in the moment, it tastes great but the guilt and feelings that follow for a long time after make me feel super low and guilty. 

At least with Aine's support one habit I've managed to crack is the beating myself up for falling off. This may seem like a not-so-good thing, but it actually means I can much more easily get back on track. If I feel guilty - I eat! No guilt - no need to eat. Weird right?! 

So thanks to the shoot and meeting a group of lovely ladies I have renewed vigour. It's 3 weeks to my birthday when I am going to Budapest and I've set my weight loss goals for that time. I've also set some exercise goals too. I definitely find it easier to eat well when exercising because I think in terms of how hard it is to burn off those kcal!